Wednesday, August 17, 2011

For the Love of Food

I love food.  It's just so dang good.  When people ask me what is your favorite food, I have a hard time answering that.  It would be far easier to answer what don't I like.  I don't care for liver and onions.  Yes, I have tried it.  I don't think I would like to try cow tongue.  Not a big okra fan.  But food overall is my frenemy.  I need to food to live.  We all do.  But I love food.  It's just good.

I started Weight Watchers almost 2 years ago when I decided to stop kidding myself.  I was the biggest I had ever been.  I couldn't look in the mirror any more.  And then my doctor was very frank with me.  She told me she didn't want to treat me for diabetes in two months.  Which is where I was headed.  So between that and my vanity I lost 30 pounds.

I hit that 30 pound mark and leveled off, and then slowly have been creeping back up.  ANd by slowly, I do mean slow.  I have only put back on 5 pounds.  Five pounds in 8 months.  It's been a real struggle.  Up and down, back and forth.  Food beckons me.  Shakes.  Cookies.  I know what is good to eat.  I know what it takes to lose the weight.  There is nothing I can't have.  But it's hard.  It is so hard to keep going.  I have 13 pounds to go.  Last Christmas I only needed to lose 7.  I am afraid that the 13 will turn 20 and so on.  

My mom asked a good question yesterday, "Is it just us, or is food just that good?"  Food to me is just that good.  I do not know what it is like to think of it as  But how is that possible when there is so much out there that is readily available??  And what do I do?  I am older than I was the first time I did this.  It is harder this time.  Much harder.   And I have been in a real slump lately.  I know I can do it.  It's just hard.  I just wish it wasn't.

Is food wonderful for you?  Do you eat to live or live to eat?

I am participating in Shell's Pour Your Heart Out. 



Emmy said...

Definitely live to eat and I am trying to change that. I am pretty lucky genetically but just because I am small doesn't mean I am healthy- so I am trying to do good and I really want to get rid of my mommy pooch.

Adrienne said...

I am learning to eat to live. You look great! I've kind of gone a live healthier kick in the past 6 months. I exercise daily, and try to eat when I'm hungry. Yes, I love food. It is that good! It's not just you!! But I also want to be healthy. I want to run with my kids and stay young (as much as possible). You can do it. Stop worrying about the numbers and start thinking about the health benefits. That helped me drop some extra weight I'd been carrying around. Stopping by from PYHO. :)

Grumpy Grateful Mom said...

You look great! I definitely live to eat! I'm at a OK place now,(though not very healthy) but I've always been up and down twenty pounds throughout my life. I definitely use it as a crutch when I'm frustrated about something. Arg. Good luck with your last 13!

Colleen said...

I have struggled with food a lot, too.

I have never really had a weight problem, but that is probably just because of my chose career. Unchecked, I can gain 20 lbs in three months. I know. I've done it.


Ethical Eating has really, really helped me in finding healthier alternatives to the foods I love and in developping tastes for new foods.

But that picture at the top of your post really got me. Hot fudge is my downfall. How is it that the last 2 posts I read were about ice cream!>?!

Awesome job on the wieght loss, overall!!!

Christina Lee said...

Oh yes *sigh*!!!!

MiMi said...

I struggle with this every minute of every day.
I used to live to eat but I changed it over a year ago. Now I'm 60 lbs down, but I have a ways to go. And I can't get out of this damn rut where I gain and lose the same 5 lbs over the last few months! GRRR!

Shell said...

I LOVE food. I finish breakfast and look forward to lunch and so on.

You can do this, though! :) You did it before and you don't have that far to go. xo

Grandpa Bapa-Poppie said...

I'm affraid food is just that good, oh yeah, i'm related.